2020-12-11 06:26.32 DEXIE: !s
2020-12-11 06:26.34 easylee:why would i?
2020-12-11 06:26.36 easylee:lol
2020-12-11 06:26.37 DEXIE:why not ?
2020-12-11 06:26.42 DEXIE:lol
2020-12-11 06:26.47 DEXIE:or at least a webiste
2020-12-11 06:27.00 easylee:i dont us a videoplatform which tries to suppress free speech
2020-12-11 06:27.26 easylee:but no
2020-12-11 06:27.27 DEXIE:could u just send to me ?
2020-12-11 06:27.33 easylee:i didnt put any mix up^^
2020-12-11 06:27.37 easylee:lol
2020-12-11 06:27.43 DEXIE:been at least a yr now LOL
2020-12-11 06:27.50 DEXIE::D
2020-12-11 06:27.53 easylee:i havent had time for djing for weeks now
2020-12-11 06:27.57 DEXIE:im being optimistic
2020-12-11 06:28.01 easylee:^^
2020-12-11 06:28.03 DEXIE::D
2020-12-11 06:28.26 DEXIE:but you have things recorded you told me u did
2020-12-11 06:29.00 easylee:i recorded hundreds of mixes or sets or attempts of such^^
2020-12-11 06:29.01 DEXIE:are you able to do that right now ?
2020-12-11 06:29.06 easylee:lol
2020-12-11 06:29.16 easylee:but as every musician i am a perfctionist^^
2020-12-11 06:29.20 DEXIE:gather in groups of less than 10
2020-12-11 06:29.24 DEXIE:ofc
2020-12-11 06:29.36 DEXIE:but even i know they are good
2020-12-11 06:29.42 easylee:rofl
2020-12-11 06:29.47 DEXIE:!p
2020-12-11 06:29.50 easylee:sucha cheap teaser^^
2020-12-11 06:29.53 easylee:lol
2020-12-11 06:29.56 DEXIE: rofl
2020-12-11 06:29.58 DEXIE: !v
2020-12-11 06:30.01 easylee::-)
2020-12-11 06:30.01 DEXIE: woowwwwwwwww
2020-12-11 06:30.11 DEXIE: name ur poison ?
2020-12-11 06:30.15 easylee:lol
2020-12-11 06:30.30 DEXIE: MJ HS isnt mine lol
2020-12-11 06:30.34 easylee:i would really like to have an ayurvedic meal now^^
2020-12-11 06:30.41 easylee:several rounds
2020-12-11 06:30.42 DEXIE: LMAOOO
2020-12-11 06:31.01 DEXIE: well i can cross word a day toliet paper off your christmas list
2020-12-11 06:31.04 easylee:ive once worked in an ayurvedic clinic in Kassel
2020-12-11 06:31.09 easylee:lol
2020-12-11 06:31.15 DEXIE: thats 2 sentences ... over achiever
2020-12-11 06:31.22 easylee:tit was amazing, best food ive ever had
2020-12-11 06:31.28 easylee:that lol
2020-12-11 06:31.32 DEXIE: omg ur killing me
2020-12-11 06:31.34 easylee:rofl
2020-12-11 06:31.37 easylee:sorry
2020-12-11 06:31.43 DEXIE: hahahaha
2020-12-11 06:31.53 easylee:i always think of them so they might get yped now and then by
2020-12-11 06:31.55 easylee:accident^^
2020-12-11 06:31.56 DEXIE: define ayruvedic please
2020-12-11 06:32.07 DEXIE: my toliet paper is still on simple adjectives
2020-12-11 06:32.25 easylee:its indian food or medicine
2020-12-11 06:32.31 DEXIE: ahhh ok
2020-12-11 06:32.34 DEXIE: organic ?
2020-12-11 06:32.38 easylee:base on thousands of years of knowledge
2020-12-11 06:32.41 DEXIE: or curry ?
2020-12-11 06:32.52 easylee:LOTS of curry and other nice spices
2020-12-11 06:32.55 DEXIE: isnt curry their base for most all
2020-12-11 06:32.58 DEXIE: yes
2020-12-11 06:33.12 easylee:well, curry isnt defined
2020-12-11 06:33.19 easylee:its always a different mix
2020-12-11 06:33.25 easylee:its not a spice itself
2020-12-11 06:33.54 easylee:but i got food for free there
2020-12-11 06:33.59 easylee:3 times a day
2020-12-11 06:34.08 easylee:i was the happeist man in the world lol
2020-12-11 06:34.21 easylee:as it was a huge buffet
2020-12-11 06:34.24 easylee:everytime
2020-12-11 06:34.31 easylee:and they had two different kitchens
2020-12-11 06:34.32 DEXIE: in india ?
2020-12-11 06:34.46 easylee:one for vegetarians and gegans and one for meat eaters
2020-12-11 06:34.51 easylee:no in germany
2020-12-11 06:34.54 easylee:in kassel
2020-12-11 06:34.55 DEXIE: ahh ok
2020-12-11 06:35.04 easylee:its a really good clinic
2020-12-11 06:35.04 DEXIE: i like the Trex line
2020-12-11 06:35.18 easylee:ive met some of the best medics ive ever met there
2020-12-11 06:35.24 DEXIE: nice
2020-12-11 06:35.29 easylee:this clinic has a really good concept
2020-12-11 06:35.44 DEXIE: and its a clinic ?
2020-12-11 06:35.44 easylee:as it combines usual treatment with ayurvedi traditional medici
2020-12-11 06:35.47 easylee:yes
2020-12-11 06:35.47 DEXIE: not a restaurant ?
2020-12-11 06:35.53 DEXIE: ahh ok
2020-12-11 06:35.56 DEXIE: very cool
2020-12-11 06:36.00 easylee:a clinic with the best kitchens ive ever been to
2020-12-11 06:36.04 DEXIE: healing must begin on the inside
2020-12-11 06:36.07 easylee:yes
2020-12-11 06:36.10 easylee:thats the idea
2020-12-11 06:36.15 DEXIE: yes i love it
2020-12-11 06:36.16 easylee:and it does
2020-12-11 06:36.23 easylee:i felt sooooo good that time
2020-12-11 06:36.41 DEXIE: how long were u there ?
2020-12-11 06:36.44 easylee:i even learned cooking there
2020-12-11 06:36.48 DEXIE: were u working there ?
2020-12-11 06:36.50 DEXIE: or just visiting ?
2020-12-11 06:36.53 easylee:participated in a seminar
2020-12-11 06:36.56 easylee:working
2020-12-11 06:36.58 DEXIE: nice
2020-12-11 06:37.15 easylee:the concept is really good as they combine
2020-12-11 06:37.25 easylee:therapies paid by the insurances
2020-12-11 06:37.35 easylee:with xtra therapies
2020-12-11 06:37.41 easylee:so
2020-12-11 06:37.46 easylee:if you are sick
2020-12-11 06:37.47 DEXIE: what are they calling that ?
2020-12-11 06:37.57 easylee:this comci?
2020-12-11 06:38.00 easylee:combi?
2020-12-11 06:38.00 DEXIE: no
2020-12-11 06:38.03 DEXIE: the therapy
2020-12-11 06:38.10 easylee:ayurveda
2020-12-11 06:38.13 DEXIE: it wouldnt really fall under occupational
2020-12-11 06:38.22 easylee:ayurveda is the name
2020-12-11 06:38.22 DEXIE: oh that is the name of the therapy
2020-12-11 06:38.26 DEXIE: ok
2020-12-11 06:38.34 easylee:its a lot with ghee and oil
2020-12-11 06:38.40 DEXIE: i make ghee
2020-12-11 06:38.47 easylee:so the ghee is for the internal clearance
2020-12-11 06:38.51 DEXIE: what kind of oil do they use ?
2020-12-11 06:38.54 DEXIE: coconut?
2020-12-11 06:38.58 easylee:and the massages with oil for external
2020-12-11 06:39.09 easylee:all sorts of slemade oil recipes
2020-12-11 06:39.15 easylee:selfmade
2020-12-11 06:39.17 DEXIE: coconut oil works very well for many many things
2020-12-11 06:39.23 easylee:no
2020-12-11 06:39.28 easylee:coconut isnt used there
2020-12-11 06:39.42 DEXIE: i used coconut oil on bedsores
2020-12-11 06:39.45 DEXIE: bad ones
2020-12-11 06:39.52 DEXIE: they told me i was wasting my time
2020-12-11 06:39.57 DEXIE: .. until they healed
2020-12-11 06:39.57 easylee:in ayurvedic therapy you first try to figure out which type of
2020-12-11 06:40.10 DEXIE: 2 of the docs are still using it
2020-12-11 06:40.15 easylee:base character you are
2020-12-11 06:40.20 easylee:then
2020-12-11 06:40.24 DEXIE: ?
2020-12-11 06:40.26 easylee:based on that anamnesis
2020-12-11 06:40.44 easylee:you get certain oils compatible with your character
2020-12-11 06:40.56 DEXIE: i research and use what is available to me
2020-12-11 06:40.59 easylee:the only oil compatible with every character, with every catego
2020-12-11 06:41.06 easylee:category
2020-12-11 06:41.07 easylee:is
2020-12-11 06:41.14 easylee:sesame oil
2020-12-11 06:41.26 DEXIE: its strong but very good to cook with
2020-12-11 06:41.30 DEXIE: thick
2020-12-11 06:41.40 easylee:well for example
2020-12-11 06:41.44 DEXIE: used in oriental cooking
2020-12-11 06:41.50 easylee:you can make yourself a head massage
2020-12-11 06:41.58 easylee:with sesame oil
2020-12-11 06:42.05 easylee:just pour it over your head
2020-12-11 06:42.13 DEXIE: i would never get that out of my hair
2020-12-11 06:42.14 easylee:dont spare
2020-12-11 06:42.18 easylee:thats the idea
2020-12-11 06:42.23 DEXIE: mmm
2020-12-11 06:42.24 DEXIE: pass
2020-12-11 06:42.28 easylee:its really really good
2020-12-11 06:42.35 DEXIE: do u use it ?
2020-12-11 06:42.40 easylee:yes, mostly in summer
2020-12-11 06:42.51 DEXIE: so it doesnt make hair grow .. what does it do ?
2020-12-11 06:42.53 easylee:you feel like being back in the womb again^^
2020-12-11 06:43.06 DEXIE: how so ?
2020-12-11 06:43.10 easylee:the oil
2020-12-11 06:43.15 easylee:its like bathing in it
2020-12-11 06:43.26 easylee:the whole head is covered in it
2020-12-11 06:43.26 DEXIE: couldnt you essentially bathe in it ?
2020-12-11 06:43.37 easylee:that would be a bit expensive
2020-12-11 06:43.40 easylee:and the idea
2020-12-11 06:43.43 easylee:is that
2020-12-11 06:43.57 easylee:the oil loving poisons
2020-12-11 06:44.04 easylee:get soluble
2020-12-11 06:44.07 DEXIE: so its supposed to be absorbed through the scalp
2020-12-11 06:44.10 easylee:and out of your skin
2020-12-11 06:44.14 easylee:no
2020-12-11 06:44.23 easylee:the idea is to get out the poisons
2020-12-11 06:44.25 DEXIE: ahhh i see
2020-12-11 06:44.30 easylee:which arent soluble to water
2020-12-11 06:44.33 DEXIE: kinda of a detoxification of sorts
2020-12-11 06:44.35 easylee:or soap
2020-12-11 06:44.37 easylee:yes
2020-12-11 06:44.45 easylee:and it works
2020-12-11 06:44.48 DEXIE: interesting
2020-12-11 06:44.52 easylee:we did a study back then
2020-12-11 06:44.52 DEXIE: i will have to read up on that
2020-12-11 06:45.10 DEXIE: i do cook with it, its kinda pricey
2020-12-11 06:45.14 easylee:with a patient who was intoxicated by working in a paint factor
2020-12-11 06:45.22 DEXIE: lead paint ?
2020-12-11 06:45.23 easylee:factory
2020-12-11 06:45.33 easylee:i cant remember tbh
2020-12-11 06:45.38 easylee:but the fact is
2020-12-11 06:45.52 easylee:during the massages
2020-12-11 06:45.57 easylee:with huge amounts of oil
2020-12-11 06:46.11 easylee:the oil gets constantly wasted
2020-12-11 06:46.18 easylee:we gathered it in a huge canister
2020-12-11 06:46.28 easylee:and examined t
2020-12-11 06:46.31 easylee:it
2020-12-11 06:46.44 DEXIE: was this while you were still in school ?
2020-12-11 06:46.52 easylee:it contained huge amounts of the poisons of her intoxication
2020-12-11 06:46.59 easylee:yes, in med school
2020-12-11 06:47.07 DEXIE: what poisons did it pull ?
2020-12-11 06:47.09 easylee:a practial time of 3 month
2020-12-11 06:47.25 easylee:as i said, i cant remember
2020-12-11 06:47.36 DEXIE: gotcha
2020-12-11 06:47.38 easylee:but it was fat soluble paint related poisonj
2020-12-11 06:47.46 DEXIE: very interesting
2020-12-11 06:48.00 easylee:the oil was analyzed after the massAGE
2020-12-11 06:48.11 DEXIE: yes ofc
2020-12-11 06:48.17 easylee:and it was much m ore of the poisons in it than expected
2020-12-11 06:48.18 DEXIE: but not reused ...right
2020-12-11 06:48.24 easylee:never reused
2020-12-11 06:48.30 easylee:in no case
2020-12-11 06:48.45 easylee:and the oil kitchen was like paradise
2020-12-11 06:48.49 easylee:all those smells
2020-12-11 06:48.54 DEXIE: so is it pulling toxins ? or just removing from the surface ?
2020-12-11 06:48.55 easylee:it was just amazing
2020-12-11 06:49.06 easylee:well you can imagine the idea
2020-12-11 06:49.15 easylee:you massge the depper layers
2020-12-11 06:49.25 easylee:while constantly putting oil
2020-12-11 06:49.26 DEXIE: well im wondering if it would work the same on feet
2020-12-11 06:49.29 easylee:on the skin
2020-12-11 06:49.37 easylee:o every body part
2020-12-11 06:49.40 DEXIE: feet hold a lot of toxins
2020-12-11 06:49.47 easylee:every body part
2020-12-11 06:49.56 easylee:its the same prnciple
2020-12-11 06:50.04 easylee:and its so logic and easy
2020-12-11 06:50.14 easylee:that you wonder why its not usually used
2020-12-11 06:50.21 DEXIE: right
2020-12-11 06:50.23 easylee:its not making enough money^^
2020-12-11 06:50.41 easylee:its quite expensive to go therapy in that clinic yes
2020-12-11 06:50.47 easylee:but in the end
2020-12-11 06:50.52 DEXIE: yeah i bet
2020-12-11 06:50.56 easylee:its way cheaper for the system
2020-12-11 06:51.09 easylee:ive met a german rock musician there as well
2020-12-11 06:51.19 easylee:he was quite popular here at that time
2020-12-11 06:51.28 easylee:i did the cooking lessons together with him^^
2020-12-11 06:51.29 DEXIE: i bet alot of the elite go there for treatment
2020-12-11 06:51.35 DEXIE: nice
2020-12-11 06:51.37 easylee:was fun^^
2020-12-11 06:51.42 easylee:he was a good guy
2020-12-11 06:51.48 easylee:we had a lot of fun^^
2020-12-11 06:51.49 DEXIE: who was he ?
2020-12-11 06:51.56 easylee:he went there incognito though
2020-12-11 06:51.57 DEXIE: i doubt i would know him
2020-12-11 06:52.05 easylee:i guess you dont know him
2020-12-11 06:52.06 DEXIE: ofc
2020-12-11 06:52.09 easylee:klaus lage
2020-12-11 06:52.13 DEXIE: npe
2020-12-11 06:52.14 easylee:i dont like his music
2020-12-11 06:52.18 easylee:but he is popular
2020-12-11 06:52.24 DEXIE: i hope you didnt tell him that lol
2020-12-11 06:52.25 easylee:well
2020-12-11 06:52.36 easylee:he went there for detoxification
2020-12-11 06:52.44 easylee:as he was alcoholic
2020-12-11 06:52.48 easylee:smoked a lot
2020-12-11 06:52.51 easylee:used drugs
2020-12-11 06:53.00 easylee:when he went there he looked like a simpson
2020-12-11 06:53.04 DEXIE: yes unfortunately many fall into that
2020-12-11 06:53.08 easylee:completely intoxicated
2020-12-11 06:53.13 easylee:yellow
2020-12-11 06:53.22 easylee:after just ONE week of therapy
2020-12-11 06:53.30 easylee:he looked healthy again already
2020-12-11 06:53.35 DEXIE: wow
2020-12-11 06:53.37 easylee:he was there for 2 monthds
2020-12-11 06:53.53 easylee:its really one of the best therapies i know if not the best
2020-12-11 06:54.06 easylee:and that time
2020-12-11 06:54.10 easylee:i was lucky
2020-12-11 06:54.20 easylee:not many of my fellow students were interested
2020-12-11 06:54.27 easylee:to do a practical time there
2020-12-11 06:54.33 easylee:i was the only one at that time
2020-12-11 06:54.41 DEXIE: twow
2020-12-11 06:54.48 easylee:so i was able to learn directly from the chief of the clinic
2020-12-11 06:54.55 DEXIE: i def would have volunteered for that one
2020-12-11 06:55.08 easylee:he was very intelligent and a really nice person
2020-12-11 06:55.27 easylee:and i gotta know the company leader couple as well
2020-12-11 06:55.30 DEXIE: very cool experience
2020-12-11 06:55.34 easylee:they have several clinics in germany
2020-12-11 06:55.41 DEXIE: did you get to try out any of the treatments ?
2020-12-11 06:55.42 easylee:its a couple
2020-12-11 06:55.48 easylee:i did yes
2020-12-11 06:55.55 easylee:as i said
2020-12-11 06:56.01 easylee:i never felt healthier^^
2020-12-11 06:56.18 DEXIE: but not necessarily smth you can recreate at home ?
2020-12-11 06:56.21 easylee:and its on foot of a small mountain
2020-12-11 06:56.26 easylee:you can
2020-12-11 06:56.39 easylee:its easy to cook ayurvedic if you once understood the
2020-12-11 06:56.42 easylee:rpinciples
2020-12-11 06:57.03 easylee:i really can suggest to infrom oneself about it
2020-12-11 06:57.31 easylee:its one of the rare things i can suggest without any doubt
2020-12-11 06:57.48 DEXIE: yes sounds like homeopathy
2020-12-11 06:57.58 DEXIE: mind, body and spirit
2020-12-11 06:58.02 easylee:they both work together beautifully
2020-12-11 06:58.27 easylee:you know what
2020-12-11 06:58.31 DEXIE: what
2020-12-11 06:58.40 easylee:i didnt think about it for some time
2020-12-11 06:58.59 easylee:now i realize that it was the only working place where i really
2020-12-11 06:59.04 easylee:felt at home
2020-12-11 06:59.27 easylee:good do get reminded of that
2020-12-11 06:59.31 easylee:to*
2020-12-11 06:59.46 DEXIE: why didnt you stay with that kind of medicine
2020-12-11 06:59.58 easylee:well, i guess it was the ego
2020-12-11 07:00.08 easylee:success oriented
2020-12-11 07:00.18 easylee:career driven
2020-12-11 07:00.20 easylee:and
2020-12-11 07:00.34 easylee:i wanted to explore all kinds of medicine first
2020-12-11 07:00.48 DEXIE: makes sense
2020-12-11 07:00.50 easylee:i mean
2020-12-11 07:01.05 easylee:we have one of the rare particle therpy centres in the world
2020-12-11 07:01.05 DEXIE: i went to school much later
2020-12-11 07:01.14 easylee:in our clinic
2020-12-11 07:01.18 DEXIE: i knew i wanted more holistic
2020-12-11 07:01.22 DEXIE: approach
2020-12-11 07:01.26 easylee:so its a huge scale of therapies
2020-12-11 07:01.32 easylee:thats good
2020-12-11 07:01.41 easylee:the more you learn the better
2020-12-11 07:01.48 DEXIE: yes i am going to do some research on that
2020-12-11 07:01.49 easylee:all sorts of ideas are welcome
2020-12-11 07:01.58 DEXIE: sounds very interesting
2020-12-11 07:02.13 DEXIE: my doctor here is indian
2020-12-11 07:02.21 easylee:in our group we do have some collaborations with water purifyin
2020-12-11 07:02.26 easylee:approaches
2020-12-11 07:02.35 easylee:its very interesting as well
2020-12-11 07:02.39 DEXIE: he is always very attentive that i prefer natural, and never argues about it
2020-12-11 07:02.44 easylee:intersting ideas and techniques
2020-12-11 07:02.55 easylee:thats nice
2020-12-11 07:03.09 DEXIE: most drs arent that way
2020-12-11 07:03.11 easylee:if indian males wouldnt be so disturbed in the
2020-12-11 07:03.15 easylee:patriachial sense
2020-12-11 07:03.24 easylee:they could be perfect human beings^^
2020-12-11 07:03.31 DEXIE: what do you mean
2020-12-11 07:03.38 DEXIE: how are they disturbed ?
2020-12-11 07:03.50 easylee:well, india is very disturbed in the macho sense
2020-12-11 07:03.56 DEXIE: man over woman
2020-12-11 07:04.07 easylee:not one indian male i know does think good of woman
2020-12-11 07:04.17 easylee:women are a lower class
2020-12-11 07:04.39 DEXIE: maybe some
2020-12-11 07:04.40 easylee:most idians have a very strong ego
2020-12-11 07:04.48 DEXIE: i have met a few like that
2020-12-11 07:04.57 easylee:and its very hard to discuss with them
2020-12-11 07:04.59 DEXIE: they met my very strong temper too
2020-12-11 07:05.02 easylee:yes
2020-12-11 07:05.18 easylee:they seem to be driven by some evil spirit then
2020-12-11 07:05.26 DEXIE: luckily my dr wasnt like that ... i do remember him being like that in the beginning
2020-12-11 07:05.27 easylee:total loss of control
2020-12-11 07:05.44 DEXIE: but he knew everything i was carrying
2020-12-11 07:05.52 DEXIE: parents, school, work, kids
2020-12-11 07:05.53 easylee:well, there surely are exceptions
2020-12-11 07:06.05 DEXIE: and i signed him as my parents dr too
2020-12-11 07:06.07 easylee:yea
2020-12-11 07:06.23 easylee:its a huge topic
2020-12-11 07:06.26 easylee:therapy
2020-12-11 07:06.27 DEXIE: but i was very strict with what i would let them do as medicine
2020-12-11 07:06.50 DEXIE: he was the one who eventually taught me thoracentesis
2020-12-11 07:06.50 easylee:the clash of cultural traditions can be problematic
2020-12-11 07:07.07 DEXIE: preferred me to assist
2020-12-11 07:07.27 easylee:thoracocentesis
2020-12-11 07:07.29 DEXIE: i can imagine
2020-12-11 07:07.32 DEXIE: yes
2020-12-11 07:07.36 easylee:you mentioned that b4 i dont know about it
2020-12-11 07:07.39 DEXIE: draining the lung
2020-12-11 07:07.46 easylee:ah that you mean
2020-12-11 07:07.54 DEXIE: yes i think you had another name for it
2020-12-11 07:07.57 easylee:i was thinking of a different approach of therapy now lol
2020-12-11 07:08.08 easylee:yes
2020-12-11 07:08.08 DEXIE: in the end a permanent tube was placed
2020-12-11 07:08.14 easylee:yea
2020-12-11 07:08.25 DEXIE: they didnt like that idea
2020-12-11 07:08.33 DEXIE: but there really was no other choice
2020-12-11 07:08.36 easylee:who would...
2020-12-11 07:08.51 DEXIE: the circumstance of infection was high
2020-12-11 07:09.04 DEXIE: and at 97 yrs
2020-12-11 07:09.11 DEXIE: its quality over quantity
2020-12-11 07:09.18 easylee:or
2020-12-11 07:09.21 easylee:acceptance
2020-12-11 07:09.30 DEXIE: acceptance of what?
2020-12-11 07:09.30 easylee:its many years of living
2020-12-11 07:09.50 DEXIE: correct .. so they should be left to drowned in their own fluids ?
2020-12-11 07:09.57 DEXIE: nahh
2020-12-11 07:10.13 easylee:no, and i wouldnt even think too much about that decision
2020-12-11 07:10.20 easylee:as its just necessary
2020-12-11 07:10.28 DEXIE: what do u mean?
2020-12-11 07:10.40 easylee:there is no option
2020-12-11 07:10.56 easylee:no alternative at a certain point
2020-12-11 07:11.01 easylee:so you have to just do it
2020-12-11 07:11.11 DEXIE: there was no way i was going to let him drowned like that
2020-12-11 07:11.17 easylee:right
2020-12-11 07:11.28 easylee:as i said
2020-12-11 07:11.35 easylee:i wouldnt think too much about it
2020-12-11 07:11.55 easylee:even the risk of infection is irrelevant at that point
2020-12-11 07:11.58 DEXIE: sorry .. didnt mean to get us off track
2020-12-11 07:12.11 DEXIE: yes i thought so too on the infection aspect
2020-12-11 07:12.12 easylee:you seem to have some kind of memories there
2020-12-11 07:12.20 easylee:which bother you
2020-12-11 07:12.24 easylee:like a trauma
2020-12-11 07:12.31 easylee:i cant just grasp it
2020-12-11 07:12.37 easylee:but it feels bad
2020-12-11 07:12.44 easylee:you should let go of it
2020-12-11 07:12.50 DEXIE: im trying
2020-12-11 07:12.56 DEXIE: im better
2020-12-11 07:12.59 DEXIE: but some to go yet
2020-12-11 07:13.10 easylee:thats why i have chosen the word acceptance for the toilet papa
2020-12-11 07:13.16 DEXIE: i sometimes feel like brooze had the right idea
2020-12-11 07:13.31 DEXIE: LOL .. u know im teasing :))
2020-12-11 07:13.39 easylee:i dont^^
2020-12-11 07:13.41 easylee:rofl
2020-12-11 07:13.44 DEXIE: haha i am
2020-12-11 07:13.47 easylee:tease i mean^^
2020-12-11 07:13.54 DEXIE: just not many things to tease you on
2020-12-11 07:14.02 easylee:not really lol
2020-12-11 07:14.03 DEXIE: so gotta take my opportunities
2020-12-11 07:14.06 easylee:i am a grown man^^
2020-12-11 07:14.11 DEXIE: haha
2020-12-11 07:14.22 easylee:many women try on a daily basis
2020-12-11 07:14.28 DEXIE: brooze thought i should write a book/movie
2020-12-11 07:14.30 easylee:so if i wouldnt have learned by that
2020-12-11 07:14.36 DEXIE: to get it out
2020-12-11 07:14.37 easylee:i would be called fool righteously
2020-12-11 07:14.46 DEXIE: and because many would learn from it and find it interesting
2020-12-11 07:15.12 easylee:i react a bit allergic to that idea without a proper
2020-12-11 07:15.12 DEXIE: although writing might help ... it would be boredom city to anyone reading it
2020-12-11 07:15.17 easylee:analysis though
2020-12-11 07:15.48 easylee:the idea of the book is something which is
2020-12-11 07:16.03 easylee:infiltrated
2020-12-11 07:16.03 DEXIE: he thought it would be a great movie
2020-12-11 07:16.12 easylee:Hi there!
2020-12-11 07:16.14 DEXIE: i think it would be boring
2020-12-11 07:16.17 easylee:he idea of importance
2020-12-11 07:16.38 easylee:most ppl who feel traumatized or suffer by a "trauma"
2020-12-11 07:16.53 easylee:think that their trauma is a very special one
2020-12-11 07:16.59 easylee:a very special story
2020-12-11 07:17.03 easylee:it usually isnt
2020-12-11 07:17.06 DEXIE: exactly
2020-12-11 07:17.13 DEXIE: mine is one of millions im sure
2020-12-11 07:17.18 easylee:the reason for the trauma often is the concept of
2020-12-11 07:17.22 easylee:importance
2020-12-11 07:17.25 DEXIE: im not saying ppl wouldnt identify ..
2020-12-11 07:17.36 easylee:dont get that wrong
2020-12-11 07:17.39 DEXIE: it just wouldnt be interesting to an entire audience
2020-12-11 07:17.43 easylee:think about it once more
2020-12-11 07:17.53 easylee:what i am trying to trasnmit is that
2020-12-11 07:18.07 easylee:the reason for the idea of atrauma
2020-12-11 07:18.21 DEXIE: well that is what he meant by that .. the trauma is the important aspect that many should know
2020-12-11 07:18.23 easylee:is the concept which lies beneath
2020-12-11 07:18.34 DEXIE: i know the trauma
2020-12-11 07:18.37 easylee:thats exactly what is not the case
2020-12-11 07:18.46 easylee:the trauma is an illusion
2020-12-11 07:19.01 DEXIE: i just never called it a trauma
2020-12-11 07:19.05 easylee:and the fixation on that illusion is the problem
2020-12-11 07:19.06 DEXIE: or thought of it as a trauma
2020-12-11 07:19.14 easylee:doesnt matter
2020-12-11 07:19.32 easylee:most bad experiences
2020-12-11 07:19.39 easylee:are like goods
2020-12-11 07:19.47 easylee:which you dont want to loose
2020-12-11 07:19.53 easylee:like a possesion
2020-12-11 07:20.03 DEXIE: i dont believe that having that tube put in was any type of extrordinary life saving measure
2020-12-11 07:20.12 easylee:right
2020-12-11 07:20.24 easylee:thats what ive meant above
2020-12-11 07:20.24 DEXIE: it was a comfort factory more than anything
2020-12-11 07:20.29 easylee:yes
2020-12-11 07:20.31 DEXIE: foctor
2020-12-11 07:20.35 easylee:lol
2020-12-11 07:20.40 DEXIE: *&^&*( u know what i mean :P
2020-12-11 07:20.41 easylee::-)
2020-12-11 07:20.50 easylee:i also know that feeling lolo
2020-12-11 07:20.55 DEXIE: haha
2020-12-11 07:20.57 easylee:^^
2020-12-11 07:21.07 DEXIE: its not that i dont want to lose it
2020-12-11 07:21.18 DEXIE: its just still very much a part of me
2020-12-11 07:21.25 easylee::-)
2020-12-11 07:21.36 easylee:copy your last sentences
2020-12-11 07:21.38 DEXIE: and i think about writing it down
2020-12-11 07:21.40 easylee:the last two
2020-12-11 07:21.42 DEXIE: to remove it
2020-12-11 07:21.48 easylee:and let those resonate
2020-12-11 07:21.50 DEXIE: but i have other things to do
2020-12-11 07:22.11 DEXIE: i see ur point
2020-12-11 07:22.24 DEXIE: but its the side aspect that i must heal
2020-12-11 07:22.40 easylee:you can heal instantly
2020-12-11 07:22.43 easylee:if you want
2020-12-11 07:22.48 easylee:in one second
2020-12-11 07:22.49 DEXIE: i wish
2020-12-11 07:22.54 easylee:i promise you
2020-12-11 07:23.07 DEXIE: go back in time ?
2020-12-11 07:23.08 easylee:its a decision
2020-12-11 07:23.18 easylee:no not go back
2020-12-11 07:23.23 easylee:but into understanding
2020-12-11 07:23.46 easylee:understanding dissolves time
2020-12-11 07:23.53 easylee:time is irrelevant
2020-12-11 07:23.54 DEXIE: what am i understanding ?
2020-12-11 07:24.05 easylee:your question
2020-12-11 07:24.09 easylee:.-)
2020-12-11 07:24.12 DEXIE: ???
2020-12-11 07:24.14 easylee:lol
2020-12-11 07:24.24 DEXIE: u did it
2020-12-11 07:24.29 easylee:if you understand why you ask
2020-12-11 07:24.29 DEXIE: left me confused lol
2020-12-11 07:24.38 easylee:its solved
2020-12-11 07:24.47 easylee:its not the answer
2020-12-11 07:24.55 easylee:ehich brings satisfaction
2020-12-11 07:24.59 easylee:which*
2020-12-11 07:25.04 easylee:its the understanding
2020-12-11 07:25.13 DEXIE: that i cannot change others
2020-12-11 07:25.25 easylee:its like in hitchhikers guide for the galaxy
2020-12-11 07:25.44 easylee:the computer solved the big question
2020-12-11 07:25.48 easylee:the answer was 42
2020-12-11 07:25.55 easylee:but it wasnt of any use
2020-12-11 07:25.57 easylee:as
2020-12-11 07:26.03 easylee:they forgot the question^^
2020-12-11 07:26.24 DEXIE: explain
2020-12-11 07:26.44 easylee:the dualism of question and answer is not the human condition
2020-12-11 07:26.52 easylee:not the natural one
2020-12-11 07:27.00 easylee:its a language based construction
2020-12-11 07:27.26 easylee:understand and question and answer are lost concepts
2020-12-11 07:27.45 easylee:accept and they are useless
2020-12-11 07:27.55 DEXIE: so what is it i need to understand ?
2020-12-11 07:28.10 easylee:what you are
2020-12-11 07:28.15 DEXIE: that there is no answer ?
2020-12-11 07:28.18 easylee:yes
2020-12-11 07:28.20 DEXIE: i know that
2020-12-11 07:28.26 easylee::-)
2020-12-11 07:28.27 DEXIE: its just living iwth it
2020-12-11 07:28.46 easylee:there is an answer
2020-12-11 07:28.55 easylee:but its not the answer for the questions
2020-12-11 07:28.59 easylee:one asked
2020-12-11 07:29.03 easylee::-)
2020-12-11 07:29.09 DEXIE: what is it
2020-12-11 07:29.33 easylee:the desire which drove to the question
2020-12-11 07:29.45 DEXIE: the why
2020-12-11 07:29.47 easylee:isnt there anymore
2020-12-11 07:29.57 easylee:and the answer is useless
2020-12-11 07:30.03 DEXIE: yes
2020-12-11 07:30.07 DEXIE: makes no difference